What’s your release?

August 26th, 2010 by Gem

So, I had somewhat of an epiphany today after a couple of things happened.

1. In Literature class we were discussing the book 1984, by George Orwell (if you haven’t read it, I actually really recommend it). Anyway, they have this thing called the “Two-minute Hate”, where everyone is forced to release all their anger and show hatred for this “enemy” of the dictatorship which is running the country, in two set minutes. Which got me thinking about releasing emotion, and…

2. I got a bad mark in a Legal SAC. Which is my 3&4. Which isn’t pretend anymore. Which nearly made me cry from the stress. -.-

Anyway I thought about this whole thing. The idea of releasing your emotion through another thing. Like how passive people, who bottle up their emotions, can suddenly just burst out in a volcanic-style eruption.

Well, I was in Programming class when I saw the mark. And we had a sub, so it was pretty much free reign on the computers. And I definitely wasn’t going to shed any kind of tear for a freaking number. So I did, what I realise now, is what I always do when I need to let it out without well, letting it out so obviously. I made a graphic. I made a black and white and angry and sad graphic that said everything I needed to say without being all that literal.

Design is my release. For some people it’s writing, or blogging, or running, or reading… Or anything. But there’s always that one thing you turn to when all else fails. There’s that thing that just lets you express every single word you need to say, without saying it.

I used to think writing was mine, but I realise that what I can’t say in words I say with my design. I love writing, but it isn’t something I do all the time, because words are often too…literal. Sometimes I don’t want people to know exactly what I’m thinking. Poetry/songs are great, but sometimes they don’t flow well for me because I feel like I’ve written it before. But design is creation. It’s different every time. In fact, some of my better graphics are the ones where I put everything into. Even if I’m angry, sometimes the graphic looks happy; but whatever emotion— angry, sad, happy, as long as it’s a passionate emotion, I can create something out of it. And I love it.

After this realisation, I started to wonder about my careers again. A while ago, I wanted to do Law, Architecture & Computer Science. Well, I’m pretty sure I can cross Law off my list for good now; for that you have to be passionate about words and justice. And while I do have a strong sense of justice, it doesn’t drive me or consume me like it does for those people that just know that Law is what they want to do. So I’m left with the two options that make me happy. Both have some kind of design element, but neither is as design-based as Graphics design, so I know I won’t start to hate what I rely on so much.

Yeah. It’s good to be back. Too bad it only tends to happen when I’m upset about something.

So my question to you is, what’s your release? Dancing? Singing? Writing?


Nooooooo~

August 25th, 2010 by Gem

Wah. So today Hamish & Andy have said they’re only doing their radio show for like, one day per week.
;;;-;;;
Nuuuu.
So sad. D.
/depression

+ yes, Ive been lazy about updating -.- Ugh, so fed up with school.


People and their opinions

August 16th, 2010 by Gem

Its been a while. So I decided to blog about something today, haha.

In one of my classes today, we were doing our usual debate things. Y’know, where theres a topic and you pick a side? Well there’s this one guy in my class who irritates me. It’s kind of hard to explain. He’s a stuck up jerk. Yeah, that’s it.

Honestly, I don’t really want to make it too obvious who I’m talking about because I know how these blogs get people into a lot of crap sometimes. But anyway, he’s so freaking arrogant— like when he asks for things, he doesn’t even ask with your name or with a please or a even a question. It’s like he think’s he’s so superior in every way that it’s only expected that he is given what is asked.

Yeah, it’s a small thing, but there are a few other things he does that further proves his arrogance. I can’t be bothered going on, but the point is; overly arrogant guys are assholes. Like, I get those kind of egotistical ones who joke about it, or even if they say they’re “awesome” all the time- doesn’t bother me because I know they’re kidding, or at least they don’t really think they’re better than everyone else. But I know for a fact that this jerk really does think he’s better than everyone else.

Anyway that’s my rant for today, do you guys know anyone like that? Who honestly think they’re superior to everyone else?

Sooo, I’ll do my fortnightly affies/loved site visiting on the weekend, but Im a little busy nowadays. Ttythen~


Mini blog

August 9th, 2010 by Gem

So I finally got a date set for my work experience at an architecture firm, yay! I’m absolutely ecstatic and nervous at the same time- I hope they don’t expect too much from me, I know close to nothing about how the architecture world works (hence, the reason why I’m going to do work experience).

It’s exciting to have at least some idea of where I want to go in life. I always felt a little bit like I was going around in circles while everyone else has some kind of direction.

Anyway I have to admit, I didn’t do much homework this weekend. I’m so tired of it -.-
Sigh. I hope I have the motivation soon.


You know, being sick isn’t much fun :(

August 5th, 2010 by Gem

Ah man, I was away for both Monday and Tuesday at school because I had the flu or some kind of stupid virus. Seriously, I’m surprised I passed my maths tests because during those days my limbs were aching like heckkk and I could barely study :P

Anyway I went to school on Wednesday and during the first half of the day, I almost wished I hadn’t. I had my IT presentation in the morning, which I found out today that I would lose marks for not standing up and presenting, because I sat down as the guy before me sat down too. She should’ve said something, I didn’t know I’d lose marks for that. Anyway I don’t give a crap, I guess, I felt pretty sick already and really, IT was the last subject on my mind.

Then I went to methods class, expecting a test. The printer wouldn’t print it, so I had it today instead. Oh and I nearly got a detention, for being away. How the hell does that work? -.- You can’t be sick and stay home once in a while? Anyway yes, well, I had to go to the office and tell them I had a medical certificate. Luckily they accepted it, jeeze.

Then I had my GMA test which I did pretty well in. I had to argue with my teacher to give me a mark, because he incorrectly marked it wrong, when his answer sheet said exactly what I wrote. Anyway, he didn’t listen to me for ages and I was getting really annoyed, then finally he realised he was wrong. LOL. I guess it’s not even the mark I cared about, it’s the principle. I got it right, he said I was wrong, and for once I was assertive about it. :P

So yeah, pretty bad day on Wednesday. I still went, though, because I felt better, and also felt bad leaving Kate alone in Lit class- especially since we have a presentation as a group coming up. Simone has been away too, it makes it hard for us to practice.

Hmm, anyway enough of /that/ stuff. Today was better. I mean, it was cold and a long day, but in general I felt quite happy. I didn’t feel nearly as sick today, though I still have a bit of a cough.

I did my methods test today, I think it went okay. I know I got a multiple choice wrong, because I made a dumbbb mistake. BUT, I felt better after talking to Jasmine and Calene about it because we got the same answers, which I think makes it more likely that we got it correct, haha.

VCD was good, I like it when our group all work in the same place. I hate working all by myself, even though I get more done like that. xD I like talking to them, it’s like… I don’t know. I stay with the same people all the time, at recess and lunch. It’s nice to have another group that I feel like I can talk to freely. Usually, yeah, there are other people I talk to in my classes, but it can be a little… constraining? Idk, we all act differently around different groups, but in my normal friends group and in my VCD group I feel like I can actually, well, talk properly.

Oh and on Tuesday, Winnie surprised me by coming over to give me important GMA revision sheets which I missed. Seriously, she is the most considerate person I have ever met. ^__^ I am eternally grateful, LOL. But anyway, it’s so… refreshing to know that there are actually people like that left in the world. I know, I have to admit I probably wouldn’t go through all that straight off the bat, but I’m going to try and be more considerate too.

So those were my last two days of events. I’m kind of surprised I had so much to talk about. Ah, sorry if that was boring, I really just felt like outlining my day instead of entertaining. Until next blog, ttyl.